sometimes I don’t think recovery is possible, I still feel like same way I did when I was 16. things don’t ever change.
the thing I hate most about myself is that I feel too much too often. I hate it so much. I hate that I fall easily for people, I hate that I get hurt easily, I hate that I can’t hate those who don’t care about me. i literally can’t handle my feelings sometimes… i feel i am drowning because I can’t control how i feel… i really wish I could. I would probably live a much happier life, and more comfortable life. I wouldn’t make rash and impulsive decisions that only get me in trouble… cause thats what I always do. I hate my feelings, I hate having them, I hate feeling. I hate it
The Good Vibe
Okay, so I usually don’t rant about this kind of stuff on my tumblr but I need an outlet right now… Perez Hilton honestly pisses me off…. When he first started and his blog was very popular I was down for all he had to say. He wasn’t “nice” but he was fair. He was also a blogger so certain journalistic ethics rules didn’t apply to him. Which is fine. He has the right to express his opinions through his writing.
His pieces have turned into complete crap. Sorry for my language, but there is no other word to describe it. Besides bashing every known artist, his writing is horrendous. There are certain ways to report on entertainment news. I know not everyone will agree that entertainment news is “news” but at least while “reporting” it have some decency for the people you are talking about. Yes, they are artists and yes there are in the lime light but at the end of the day they are human beings.
The whole piece that started this rant was something I just saw on Perez Hiltons page… (I used to love reading his blog so I followed his Facebook, but as time has passed he makes my blood boil) It was an article about Selena Gomez and how she partied after the Oscars…. SO WHAT. Leave the poor girl alone. It makes me so angry to think that she is getting bashed by someone who doesn’t really have a career. (Another fact, NO i am not a die hard Selena Gomez fan, I enjoy your music on occasion) She is 21 years old… get over it she parties once in a while. Whenever these “bloggers” talk about OVER AGE pop stars “partying” I think to myself… DUDE I’M 21 too, I party… its human nature. People need to get over this whole”role model” phenomenon… Once you are over a certain age, you are allowed to do whatever you want. Yes you might have been a child star but people grow up and fans grow with them. Parents talk about being all concerned that these pop stars are changing their kids… WELL BE A PARENT. Teach your child the right and wrong, if you think Selena Gomez is falling of the rails, explain why YOU think its wrong.
Yes, I often criticize pop artists for the things that I find strange but at the end of the day, they’re human, they can do whatever they want.
The same with Kendall Jenner and her whole nipple showing fiasco… GUYS, she’s a super model, and she’s 18. I bet any other super model would have been fine. Just cause she’s a little more famous than other doesn’t mean what she is doing is wrong. She’s human.
okay i’m done.
“this leaves men confused and unable to pigeonhole you. What they are forced to do instead is… take you seriously.”
this is going to be johnny depps new wife and i want to kill her